walk with me :)

"A real friend is the one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

it's a new academic year and for me, who will be a freshman, have to deal with one of the things i scared. making new friends.

it's absolutely silly, huh? but yeah, making new friends and creating a good relationship is kinda hard and worrying for me. i'm always worried about 'am i good enough?' or 'am i annoying or what?' (even i still have this feeling with my friends -_-) cause i feel wherever i am, i create this awkward atmosphere that makes me think that i'm weird or annoying. i just feel that i can't always fit in. i feel like people are staring at me, thinking i'm weird or something else. each time i have to make new friends, i have to think hard and try not to lose those new friends. somehow, it's very frustrating just to start a conversation just not to get bored and stuffs. i'm afraid i can't fit in. i know i can't get along with every single person, but i just don't want to make enemies, haters, etc.. maybe i just want to be accepted. pathetic, i know. but i'm not those pretty girls who have everything they want, i'm not those popular girls who have many friends easily. i'm just a girl who have to struggle even in making friends. i just don't want to be alone and do everything solo..

maybe i should smile a little bit more.. :)